“I can still feel the helplessness. Wishing I was strong. Wishing I could fight. Wishing I was anyone but scared, skinny, sickly little Steve Rogers…those beatings…and that scared, skinny, sickly Steve Rogers…that was where the man I became was really born. Not in the fires of war. Not in a secret government lab. But inside a sense of justice.
Steve Rogers: Super Soldier #3
You know what I really love about Steve is that he could have so easily gone the other way. When someone spends their whole life being bullied, feeling so defenceless and abused, and feeling so completely powerless to stop it. When they are so used to being that weak, defenceless kid, such an easy target. Someone who expects the people that he meets to misunderstand and bully him, because thats what most of them have done.
For someone to hand him power on a silver platter. It’s the ability to finally fight back. To say “I am not weak any more.” There are a lot of people who might take that and use it to get revenge for all the things that they suffered through. They might use it to scare and hurt others, they might become violent because they know from first hand experience that no one is going to try and hurt someone with power. That people are afraid of the person that wields that power. When other people become scared of them, then they don’t have to be scared themselves any more. Its the most basic self defence.
Because underneath that all they are still a person who has learned, and who has been conditioned their whole life, to expect other people to want to hurt them. You would think that a part of Steve would want to show his strength, to teach others that he can’t be hurt any more.
But nope, Steve said “You know what? All that stuff that happened to me, none of that is going to happen to anyone else ever again. I’ll make sure of it.” He did so well not to become a bully. I have a lot of repressed Steve feelings you guys.